Day 087

Dear dreamer,

After the break...

The break is over. The break from the fight, if you were wondering what break. I hate breaks because mentally, I am more suited to overworking. That's the only thing that brings me satisfaction. I always believe that we are limitless when it comes down to what we can do. We are the only ones that has the ability to hold ourselves down. So, I don't like taking breaks because it usually requires me rewiring my mind both before and after the break. 

However, this time I feel like the break was needed so I can see more clearly. This new time felt very much assuring, like a brand new chance at fighting. I felt more assured and courageous than initially. My thoughts were surprisingly clearer, it felt like my mind had somehow learnt new lessons and and I did not have to remind myself what was smart to do or what was stupid. I just had to create a new plan and try out project 2. I have left it for too long. 

This feels like pausing to catch your breath before proceeding with a fierce battle. The first step I took was decluttering my activities. Recently, I have been living a life that involved doing anything just to keep the system running even when it is clearly not part of my duties. In clearer terms, I was doing the things that people were refusing to simply because it has to be done. I need time for myself and to do my own job that was neglected. I announced to myself and whoever else was listening that things were going to change around. I can not loose this chance to live my dreams

More notable is the amount of difference I spotted in a single day of changing something in my life. It's all dependent on us really. Make that drastic change, you will thank yourself later. Trust me


                        ~A Penniless Dreamer

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