Day 086

Dear dreamer,

The Passion Trap

I have fallen into it. There was no doubt about that now. I suddenly had this epiphany that I had fallen into the trap of living in my passion. The fun fact is that this happened because I did not necessarily know what my passion was or maybe I should say that I always never accepted the chance this was it. Ignorance is always dangerous. I felt it was not my passion, how wrong I was. Only now did I realise how hard it is and even I could attest to that fact but I was doing it with two hands even though it's not a part of the plan at all. I have completely fallen without realising it.

It has been fun while it lasted but it is time to go ahead with what the plan is. I need a new plan, another strategy map to draw. I tried unsuccessfully to pick up an old idea to continue working on it. All my projects felt very unfamiliar all of a sudden. Unknowingly, I had kind of surrounded myself with this work that I was doing and enjoying it. I need to put a pause to this lifestyle. Nothing else stood a chance where all of this was.

A vivid example is when I was contemplating staying here for a while because there was a need I could 'fill'. I told my dad about it and he asked why I was deciding it. My responses were sort of gibberish even to my hearing. I could not precisely state why and he said I should live my life not another's.

I don't have to be stuck in anywhere. When I find that I'm stuck, I just need to find my way out so finding my way it is. I don't have to be here for so long. This is my one chance to be everything I want to be.


                    ~ A Penniless Dreamer

 

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