Day 081

Dear dreamer,

Hard choices...

We will live with some. It's a common rodeo, nothing new. Sometimes, we have to make really hard choices. Some are just very overarching. They are hard decisions because they might not be your favourite thing but they are the right thing to do to make a smart decision. It's not only about what feels right. Our body and mind could deceive and entrap us sometimes especially when it comes down to what is comfortable and what is not. It's comfortable does not make it the right thing to do. 

Today, I had to make another hard choice. In fact, it would take a while for me to get used to it but I did what I had to do. It seemed to be a case of been audaciously greedy but it is better than been complacent. A life that wants and gets nothing. Sometimes, a choice can get caught in settling. It could be about settling for what you could find. What sort of life would that be. I think it's not worth living if it is simply about what happens to you in the course of life. 

What would we be if our choices were taken out of our hands? I tell myself something from time to time so I don't forget it. I am what I choose to be. I might not be there exactly but I am always on my way there and I won't give up my chances to do this for myself. This is the one chance that I have to live this dreams. So, what will hard choices do to me? Why should I be scared of them? The life I chose is enough work for me to figure out. I had to make a choice with regards to the job offer. 



                        ~A Penniless Dreamer

Comments

Post a Comment

Popular posts from this blog

Day 001

Dear dreamer, Thoughts and more Thoughts... This is not your typical 'my life story'- only it possesses elements of it. The most daring thing about this is that I am just going with the flow (whatever that means) . I know not what the end will be, only dare hope it is good just like I think. Everyone always say "Dream" and it is only so hard to do so. They never tell you about the hopelessness in dreaming when you are penniless- which is the initial state of every dreamer. They do not want to discourage you so they omit it from every literature or maybe it is just difficult to describe which is what I want to describe so you can almost feel it... For any dreamer who is a vast reader and learner, the best way to start is to borrow wisdom from from great writers and people who have trailed this path before. From all I could gather, one stood painfully practical; 'Do not focus on what you do not have...but what you need  and find your way to it using what you have...
Read more

Day 002

Dear dreamer,  Questions...lots of questions Lethargy...I could literally feel it like a gentle caress lulling me back to comfort-very deceptively destructive state. I started the long, arduous process of shaking it off simply because I have this one chance to live my dreams and I won't screw it up as far as it is up to me.  I started the day wondering if my ideas were good. There were a lot of questions;  Can I pull it off?  I might need help so I called out to my close confidant. I read about something called a kitchen cabinet- it is a couple of people that are literally your guide rails. They keep you accountable, you can ask them questions about anything. Well, they are supposed to be comforting enough yet honest to call you up on your faults without mincing words. I started building mine then so I reached out to the one who I can say is the chief of my cabinet. I ran the ideas by him, he did not have much of an opinion just a lot of questions about the idea and ...
Read more

Day 004

  Dear dreamer,  Life Of A Penniless Dreamer I don't know about others but being idle makes me so uncomfortable. Like, I must always be doing something valuable, meaningful, something that is felt but, as it was, I was just waking up in the past few days to nothing but absolute emptiness. Of course, I did some mundane chore but it moved nothing so I was dissatisfied and wondering what exactly I could do- something effortless enough but impactful. Not like I did not have things to do, in fact I had deadlines to meet but I was in low spirits so I had no motivation nor intention and I have learnt to not force some things. Quality dwindles. Poor quality with so much effort. There is something I do from time to time, no fixed time frame but I just organise it as it feels. It's a self-reflection exercise. During the exercise, I just simply review all of my plans and see how much progress I made- sometimes it is depressing, other times it lifts my spirit. It's just to make sure I ...
Read more