Day 078

Dear dreamer
Misunderstanding

Maybe there are many sides of me and that is okay.

I wondered if being misunderstood was something everyone experiences because I used to find it difficult coping with the picture of me in people's mind. I thought it was so important, their impression of me.

Sometimes, you only mean well and they can't even see it as you try to paint it. They see another figure that bears no resemblance to what you try to illustrate and you are exhausted trying to make them perceive what you do. What if it is a lifestyle that we all just have to get used to. I have become someone who pays very little attention to the noise around. There was no use trying to make them see what I see, their visions were already sort of preset a type of way. 

Misunderstanding can come from close or far quarters. The ones that come from close quarters can somewhat be heart wrenching. Was it my fault for not letting them see enough to understand or their fault for not looking closely enough and seeing. For a long time, I always thought I could do something about it that I was the one at fault for what they see but now I am beginning to understand and accept that I played no important role in the doing, it merely happened the way it did and it is alright. The image does not necessarily represent you, it is their perception of you and you have to go on living remembering that their perception of you might have nothing to do with you and has no effect on who you are.

The whole essence is to remain yourself despite the variety of image of you that may be found outside. You are who you are and that is enough. After all, this is your chance to write your story and it is entirely up to you. It's okay to stop trying so hard for anyone other than myself. I just need to maintain the person I choose to be. I exist for myself regardless of the perception of others. I would not change my existence to suit or soothe their visions of me. I am simply me.


                    ~A Penniless Dreamer



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