Day 076

Dear dreamer,

Good or bad?

I was beginning to get comfortable. Good thing or not? I was not sure. My mum always said that I was a natural at this but I never thought of it seriously. Now, I realised a habit of mine that I was not quite sure if I could call it good or bad. It seemed to be somewhere in the middle. When I am in the middle of work, I pursue it mindlessly completely forgetting that it's business too. I was a persistent passion worker. I get immersed in what I am doing easily. This time, I have forgotten that I was doing this for the penny.

I was stuck in between 'this is my passion' and what actually needs to be done. A part of me was saying you love this job, it might not be what you need but you enjoy it, why not settle here for now pending when you will embark on your next trip. Another part of me disagreed though. I had worked hard enough to get this far but I am not to remain here. I should prepare the next destination. I started this because I wanted to take a break from guessing so much. I wanted a little bit of stability and I got it. I am not supposed to get comfortable with average.

It's not because the work is easy. I was working harder than I was previously, sleep was short. It was mentally challenging. I had to think on spot to try to solve some issues, not to talk about the off-the-books duties I did just because no one else was willing to do it. This just felt like the right place to be. It was not exactly comfort but it was comfortable no doubt.

Is it a bad thing or good one? I could not decide. I have not had time to touch prior projects. I hardly even had time to eat and sleep, where is the time to do something else? This exactly is my concern I don't have all the answers but I had little time to figure this out. I can not afford to waste this one chance to live my dreams. 


                        ~A Penniless Dreamer

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