Day 065

 Dear dreamer,

A little more...

I might have been forgetting to mention something. I was realistically out of penniless. I was not out of all of it but it was at least out of 'penniless'. After a long string of days, I was out of red zone slightly. It was relieving to have done this much for myself. Of course, it was not exactly without help but for what it's worth. I did a lot of it by myself. The work continues though, maybe even more than it has been.

For weeks, I have actually wondered what to focus on as the new project. Now, I have the answer. I was out of red but I still had a long way to go substantially. That is the new project. It had several other mini projects attached but this is the briefest I could go in describing it. At this time, I knew that all projects were about to be suspended for about two weeks because busy week at work was approaching.

Unexpectedly, I was most likely to take on an entirely new project when all of this was done. One of those projects you stumble on accidentally but manages to catch your eye. All of a sudden, I thought of all the long list of the projects; the ones I was very sentimental about and could not let go of, the ones I knew I was most likely not going to work on from the moment that I put them away, the ones that were in the active region. Sometimes, this statistic made me feel a little bit irresponsible- like I was not capable of holding anything down. But, the strength in guessing is increased with the number of guesses. I am on a journey that I am not familiar with, no prior knowledge and I have to do or not, facing the consequences of either choice. 

I choose to do or not with as many as possible which is fair enough if you ask me since there is no outright guideline for the journey. I think the list can be as long as possible. After all, I only get this chance to do this. The list will only get longer. I was not sure I recognised the line between not putting your eggs in one basket and being irresponsible enough to not finish any project. Well, it was a gamble I was willing to make.


                                ~ A Penniless Dreamer

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