Day 063

Dear dreamer,

Conscious or not 

Was I losing myself or was I evolving? Very brief today...

This is a question that I found very difficult to answer and I'm the only one who possesses the answer. Recently and too frequently, I have been slipping in and out of consciousness. One minute, I think it's me and soon, I doubt it again. It's like having two personalities that assail you very differently without interfering with each other.

I was alternating between decisions for various reasons. I was slipping into consciousness and out of it in no particular order. I have been listening closely and observing the most amazing stories. There are parts of you that can not get far with you in the long run. The easier you realise the better for you. Certain parts of you will have to be sacrificed in the course of pursuing a lot of things. Sometimes, the sacrifices makes me sit and sigh yet again. We'll keep adjusting to fit in as long as we can. After all, we have this one chance to prove that we are worth our dreams. 

I was kind of hesitant to go ahead. For a moment, I almost compromised but I remembered the misery waiting for me if I even refused to do this for myself. It outweighs the sacrifice. 


                            ~A Penniless Dreamer

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