Day 054

 Dear dreamer,

Lifeless

Some days are full of life and activities, some are not. They painfully pass even slowly than you are used to. 

I am working on my brand, product 2 plus I had my job to do. There is hardly breathing space for me. I can not feel tired and sleep in. Today is one of those days when I was mentally exhausted and I need to declutter. I simply wonder what all of this stress is for. Is it worth it, How bad would it be if I stopped? I badly want to cease exist for a while and continue to exist later. However, the luxury of time was something I was not exactly sure I had. This type of episode is not so unfamiliar but I could not skip to the end easily. It's a process that I allow to run its full course. 

Nothing makes working hard consistently tiring than the thought that all of it could still fail to give you desired result. Things go differently than you plan frequently. I don't even know how many 'I thought this was it' moments I would have before I finally get 'it'. That nagging thought makes you weary but keeps you in constant touch with reality. All of this was thinking- a trap most of us get caught in too often. I had better snap out of it and do something that will reassure me because the reassurance I was seeking would never come and on closer look, it is not that important. 

Don't forget to live this dreams the best you can. That's what is important.

You need to witness the life you will have when you live those dreams. Let your imagination become reality. 


                                ~A Penniless Dreamer

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