Day 052

 Dear dreamer,

How tough are you?

How do you answer this question? Is it the silence that conveys a bit of cowardice, or the rashness that is dosed with the heavy scent of overconfidence. Well, none of it is entirely right nor wrong. Today is a brief one. This is just one of the days that I simply analyse or try to by asking so many questions to at least be clear that I am here of my intent not accidentally. It seems to me that we are trapped into some decisions some times. I had a job and had no time anymore. I was not even able to get enough sleep to meet up with everything but I can not quit the job because it at least will pay me some money. I however realised that I would have to sacrifice some time to make money to do something else. Everyday, we will come to a clearer, stark realisation that you underestimated how hard life was. It's very knotty sometimes that seeing beyond your challenges was hard. Your troubles or challenges looks like a very broad spectrum with no end in sight. 

I was trapped in taking a job that left me no time, something I have always dreaded more than anything but I realised that some battles are better left till you are strong enough to overcome it. It might look like you are a coward in fact, maybe you are but, the fact is, we have to walk away from some fights so we stay alive to fight again. I was telling myself that I would soon rewrite my job contract to one suited better to me but it was not the right time yet.

It's okay to walk away from a fight because you are not strong enough but don't ever give up the fight entirely. What I mean is, go and get stronger so you can come back to fight it or if a similar fight comes up, you can stand a chance this time after all, we only get one chance to live our dreams. Keep fighting, Soldier!


                            ~A Penniless Dreamer

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