Day 051

 Dear dreamer,

Hungry...

I was hungry. Hungry for knowledge...definitely something I did not know. Sometimes, I feel like I have exhausted every piece of knowledge I had and try to refuel. See new things, understand new ideas, look from other perspectives maybe there was something I could use. For me, reading is not because it's fun. Your eyes hurt after a while but that was how I assimilated the most- reading. Not watching nor listening. I never pay attention. Knowing more, amassing knowledge was what I found fun so if you give me a literature that I cannot understand or does not precisely provide useful knowledge, reading it becomes boring and burdensome.

I almost impulsively applied for a post graduate course because I was kind of desperate to leave for somewhere I would be involved in learning something very unfamiliar. Thankfully, in my library I had three books to read. I picked the one that seemed a little novel to me simply because that means more things to learn. It is not exactly logically right for me to do because I was at a crossroad and confused. This could go in two ways; either I learn something new that feels like the last piece of the puzzle or it adds to the already existent indecision and confusion but not learning was out of the options. 

Feel hungry? Get fed and ensure you are filled up so you have more strength for the future. There's still an extremely long way to go. This is only the beginning. You have this chance to do this right, don't mess it up. 


                                ~A Penniless Dreamer

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