Day 048

 Dear dreamer,

Another puzzle

I am going to point something out just in case you have not noticed. I have not taken on any major project in recent times. Of course, there have been speculations here and there, big plans, but I have not recently done anything that got me biting away at my nails or tapping my nails repeatedly on a surface without rhythm. Truth is, I have been truly hesitant to do anything major. I have been doing things carelessly without properly analysing because, I am worried that the ones I look into would not see the light of the day. 

The interesting fact is that no matter how many things you do in the process of doing as much as possible, if you don't put much thought in it, you will not get far no matter how great the idea. For anything to grow, it needs tending. So, I was sure none of the things I did mindlessly would amount to anything reasonable so I was even more nonchalant about them. I did not understand how long this torturous cycle would go on. 

I was exactly here for a reason. I couldn't decide what to do with ongoing projects. Which of them do I have to give up or did I just need to work a little harder at it? I was all to familiar with the feeling when someone else succeeds at something you abandoned even though it can be a matter of place and time, or the feeling when you realise you have been wasting your time on a lost cause. I think the most surprising fact that I have come to realise is that either of them is committed in fear of the other. You risk working on a lost cause for fear of giving up a good project.

So, do we really have anything to lose? Another puzzle my dear dreamer. We have this one chance to do this right though


                                ~A Penniless Dreamer

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