Day 044

 Dear dreamer,

Faith

Nothing could quite describe how hard it is to have faith. Faith is trusting without reason. There is no evidence that the outcome is going to be as you expect but you just trust the process. Fun fact is people say 'trust the process' a lot but do not grasp how difficult it can be when you have to act. It's honestly very hard to trust without evidence and there's hardly anything that can be done without trusting the process. Life works such that we always have to trust the seed to grow and just plant. Then, we wait carefully for it to grow. As easy as it may sound, it's complicated to do and I was beginning to understand on a new level just how hard it is. 

I am supposed to put my faith in my plans. I had this plans that could very well fall to pieces in seconds and I was to trust them to carry me to safety. Maybe it's because the plan was not exactly familiar; I had not adopted from someone. I carefully curated it and was now scared to risk wasting so much time on a plan that was made to fail. What is the solution? Do I just change the plans till I found one I could trust or was I to just stick with doing as much as I can. I am supposed to trust what is not certain. I was sticking to the schedule as much as possible but I was not exactly doing my best and I knew it.

After considering this for a while, I realised it was not really up to me. I could choose to risk being wrong and do it anyway or not do anything at all out of fear of being wrong. I did not have much of a choice either way. Both of them could equally go wrong so I had to choose the lesser evil anyway. It's not up to you whether it's right or wrong, you can choose to have faith or not but do what you have to do. Change plans if need be. Don't throw away this chance you have to do this right.


                             ~A Penniless Dreamer       

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