Day 038

 Dear dreamer,

Rearranging...

I need to do something. It was one thing to be mentally down but the longer you spend there, the harder it gets to stand up. Time was painfully passing by the minute and it was becoming more of a matter of urgency, with the urgency only increasing by the moment. I was not about to question my life choices yet again. It is in the past and I wanted to  have nothing to do with it. 

Enough with the guessing, it is time to do. Do and fail or win. I had a list of things I have to do and the earlier I set out, the best for me. Once again, I had to create yet another plan. The necessity of a plan can never be overemphasised. I've said this before but I will again because repetition increases clarity thus, the chances of making it stick. The purpose of a plan is not to explicitly make you rigid to a set of your actions. Things would not go according to what you envisioned a lot of times. That's exactly why you make alternative routes to the important milestones. What a plan is supposed to do, is to help you to hit your milestones in succession even if all else fails. Every time you are confused on what to do next, achieving your milestone should guide you so the important thing is your milestone. Do it diligently, you only get this one chance to do this.

Here I am, drawing up another schedule tiredly. Deep down somewhere, I felt like it was just a vicious cycle I would have to go through time and time again till I don't have to go again. Till then, I would gladly-maybe not-so-gladly go through it. I like to see all of this as the test the universe puts everyone through so we can get rid of what we actually don't want and help us to find the best of ourselves with time. Do we really have anything to lose? I wish I knew the right answer...


                                        ~A Penniless Dreamer

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