Day 032

 Dear dreamer,

Staying positive...

Truth is, I was trying my best to stay positive. I had designed a plan almost entirely different from the initial one, the products on my timeline were more and required more. I was yet to assemble a team and I did not necessarily think it is a smart move right now. Certain actions could become very terrible when utilised at the wrong time. That's how teamwork felt. I might be wrong but it just feels like that. I have resorted to writing out time and time again, seeking clarity and trying to find the best way out of this just so I stay sane. When tasks get too much, I run from everything. It just feels very uncomfortable when I am confused. Here I was, with a whole new set of products and a new set of plans, it was like starting over again.

I was thinking briefly and I remembered something I tell people time and time again; Life is not a destination, but a journey. The whole essence, the entire worth of life is in the journey you have taken up to this point. One day, with all of the hard work of course, we will get to our destination and it will feel worthy because we can look on the journey and appreciate how far we have come. It was about making pennies for me in the past 30 days but the truth is that I have explored more than I have in the past year. I have definitely worked more and harder in the past 30+ days than in the past year and it is only going to increase. I have learnt more, seen more, experienced more and when I think of the journey, I think it's all worth it and I'm staying positive. It will all add up in the end. I am planning on embarking on another entire journey. It will be challenging but that's the point. Is it not? It makes it worthwhile, meaningful because every moment is not in vain. It's just a preparation for the next one. I am on this journey and I am here for the long haul, not to run at the slightest challenge. After all, I have this one chance to live this dreams and I am not going to let it go. 


                                    ~A Penniless Dreamer

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