Day 028

 Dear dreamer,

The Plan...

Yeah...I know that is what I'm supposed to do but I was busy with impromptu designing plus other types of jobs that were definitely not in my professional skill set. More importantly, I was trying so hard to see how I could launch product 1 but there's only so much I can do. I was giving it my best though but...

It was time for evaluation. Everything or say most of the things I was doing at this time were most likely not going to get me what I needed- pennies if you remember. I did not even understand what I was doing anymore, why was I even here...but it's fine. There's a charm that exists in admitting your own predicament. It reduces the usual struggle that comes with struggling to fight it. 

I was branching off- doing something else. At least, that was my intention. I was looking through the archives searching for the perfect project, something I had always wanted to work on. Something relatively possible right away. I was reading through my old notes, journals and the answer stared me in the face. I could write. I was good at coming up with literal narratives, my mum always says I take after my dad so my latest project became writing/content creation but I had reservations. I was not exactly sure I wanted to convert this hobby of mine to a trade. Call me old-fashioned but I have never been a fan of mixing business with pleasure. However, there is a project that I almost started a while ago. I was not quite sure I could pull it off for valid reasons in the past but I am definitely bolder so I am forking Uig Speaks back into the game. We'll see. 

Don't forget though...we only get this one chance to live our dreams, don't waste it. 

Note that Uig Speaks was a hobby too but I was not sure of what I was doing exactly. I just want to do it. You know, sometimes it's better to ask easier questions especially when you are not quite sure. Do I like the project? Yes I do. Do I want to do it? Of course, so I left the remaining questions hanging exactly how they were- unanswered or complicated. Take your pick.


                                    ~A Penniless Dreamer

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