Day 024

 Dear dreamer,

Giving up...or not?

I was tired. Tired of trying so hard and not getting anywhere, no way out. The feeling was all too familiar, I have felt it a lot of times in the past and it was not less difficult than previously,  maybe even more disappointing. I am very wary of the sunk cost fallacy. My dad once told me a story about an insect hitting a window glass severally in hope that the glass would probably budge and it would find breakthrough. Now, we all know that it was only by magic that, it would happen. It was on a suicide mission. The painful part of the story is that just behind, a door was opened wide. 

This is what is going on with a lot of people. The moral of the story is that you can be lucky enough to locate the door at once, on the other hand, you might be unfortunate to find the window first and try your best to break it and not succeed. There is nothing that clearly distinguishes an open door or a closed window, both of them still requires the work and I have been trying to understand the line between them but it is blurred. I was trying to decide whether this was another project to be abandoned or I just needed to stay at it a little bit longer. 

We should understand that until we do the right thing, we might dance around all sorts of things, struggling hopelessly and frustrated. We just keep trying things randomly, hoping we find it sooner or not. I was undecided but one thing kept bugging me, I needed to fail at it before deciding that I tried my best. I was not going to run before I am sure. I was not about to let go of this chance. On this note, today ends. No pennies yet...


                                ~A Penniless Dreamer

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