Day 010

 Dear dreamer, 

New Perspectives...New Decisions

Or so I thought. I was considering the activities of the day before and I was confused. I did not particularly want a job offer. If I did, building products would never have been the first thing on my mind. Not like a job is bad, in fact, it is very good but I have worked jobs and I never really enjoyed it. I was always so eager for it to end (I think it's more personal than anything else). I was not building product because it was a lot of money either, a job would certainly have been better- no capital required but the only type of job I ever considered taking is a contract job so I can leave when I am done but here I was contemplating a job offer. I did not see that coming.

I got tired of thinking of it and just chose to live one thought, one work, one task at a time. That was me making my decision- I was not going to decide right now because it is not important. Product 1 is. If anything, I could always just choose either one and work with it. Both of them equally had their upsides and downsides. 

Now to product 1, it was market ready or at least I thought so until a few questions came up with regards to the customers and I realised my current plan was not going to work much because I stalled too much (no pennies). I had cold feet. Would it ever really happen? I had this one chance to live this dreams, was I going to screw this up too? I got very antsy - a lot quickly than I imagined possible. I have attempted a couple of things in the past- tried to open a brand, tried to start a podcast, tried to write a number of books, many others that I can't even recall but at the last minute, I got cold feet before it happened.

Then, I remembered what someone told me a few months back. She was a total stranger, we just got talking and I mentioned a few of this things to her and she made me feel irresponsible, maybe because she made me realise how dumb and cowardly I was, or when she did reprimand me. She said I should follow through with one- just start with one. 

The fear of failing is what will hold a lot of people back from winning. The first thing to do when you really want to win (or succeed-I just don't like the word, personal reasons) is to acquaint yourself with failure. Understand that it doesn't matter whether you fail, one of my favourite things to say is 'you win some, you lose some'. Don't let the fear of failing stop you from failing at all. It's better to have failed than to not have tried. 

I am going ahead. I am going to do all I can to make sure I don't fail but most importantly, I need to fail before deciding that I have failed. That would be losing completely. So new changes to product 1 underway.


                                    ~A Penniless Dreamer

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