Day 007

 Dear dreamer,

Still not Up...

Yeah...I also did not exactly see this coming. I just wanted to build awesome things, structures, just about anything awesome that changed lives. That is my dream. But here I was realising that I had underestimated how difficult and not spontaneous it will be. All of a sudden I remembered that I learnt somewhere that when building, do those little things that contribute to the overall results. Now, I understood very clearly what the writer thought.  I had made substantial progress in that regard. I had a couple of little wins- that's what the writer called it. Those little wins, no matter how small or not very significant do a huge job in encouraging you. You might not be there yet but you were definitely on the way. It is delay not denial.

I was definitely enjoying the ride, slow tides and chaos combined to produce a rhythm- a beautiful one that is one day going to word a story to be told time and time again. It is easier to understand and appreciate this when looking at the big picture and that was enough to keep me going. After all, I had this one chance to live those dreams and I was going to give it my best shot yet.

I was busy trying to tie as many loose ends as possible and this set me off very quickly. My anxiety increased with each gap I found and had to cover. I felt that all of it could easily fail. Some times, we are chasing perfection which is fair...I think it's 'perfect' that is going to survive in the long run but we should not let it disturb more than it should. It's hard deciding a lot of things and if you don't decide quickly enough- it negates every right decision you have made so, a lot of times, we'll just experimentally make a choice and keep correcting if need be. Wrong decision is better than no decision.

Also, I had three things fighting for my time and I have just 24 hrs each day and there were other things so I think it's time for a priority list. I need to manage my time and the first step is to de-clutter your to-do list, narrow it down to the most important and do exactly that. I had to pick one at a time so I would be able to focus on it . Focus is definitely a vital ingredient to achieve anything worth it. I had to make a choice between what to make my priority at this time. This time, it was easy because each of them had different times of implementation so I could now work towards pushing it to production.

I also have the team to set up. I spent the entire day debating how to go about that. Nonetheless, I was trying to get my small win. I am still exploring options to build a team- a good one most importantly. I started building a collection of books on teamwork and leadership. I definitely needed guidance as I was literally close to clueless. About my penniless state, I was thinking of taking another approach but all of this still stands because it had become something else other than a means to make money. I was now invested in it in ways more than I thought possible which is exactly what I wanted-build the character (reserving that for some other time). Till then...


                             ~A Penniless Dreamer



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