Day 002

Dear dreamer, 

Questions...lots of questions

Lethargy...I could literally feel it like a gentle caress lulling me back to comfort-very deceptively destructive state. I started the long, arduous process of shaking it off simply because I have this one chance to live my dreams and I won't screw it up as far as it is up to me. 

I started the day wondering if my ideas were good. There were a lot of questions; 

Can I pull it off? 

I might need help so I called out to my close confidant. I read about something called a kitchen cabinet- it is a couple of people that are literally your guide rails. They keep you accountable, you can ask them questions about anything. Well, they are supposed to be comforting enough yet honest to call you up on your faults without mincing words. I started building mine then so I reached out to the one who I can say is the chief of my cabinet. I ran the ideas by him, he did not have much of an opinion just a lot of questions about the idea and in the process of answering the questions, I found the clarity I needed to propose the idea to a major stakeholder who confirmed that the idea was good enough to fly. More questions came;

How feasible was the idea?

How much information was available to act on?

How can I start?

Where do I start from?

Then came the self-doubt questions too- there was definitely something wrong with the idea even though I could not find any fault- I actually did find some but they were circumstances not problems- things I could work around. I just did not feel confident enough to pull it off. What is really special about the idea that someone has not attempted and failed? I mean, the entire idea came to me like an adrenaline rush from experiencing an high. 

Now, I have read about feelings like this in books, watched videos and listened to speakers say- snap out of it- only it is real and is definitely easier said than done. Then, something struck me out of nowhere; 

You have no business with what is out of your control. Focus on what is within your grasp

Just like that, I picked up my To-Do journal (shout out to ASVA) and started to write out the idea and draft a rough plan on how and what I needed to do; did a little bit of research, surfed the net and tried to answer every product-related question that came up. Luckily, I was able to answer about 75 percent of them. 

At the end of the day, I had something I could definitely work with. I knew what I had to do next. 

Phew! That's a good start. Another day was up. No penny was made- too early to panic. Soon...

                                ~A Penniless Dreamer